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2010-12-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

Goodbye, hello?

2010-11-21T20:25:00.001+08:00

www.Sharethemoments.wordpress.com
visit me there, thankyou .

Falling stars.

2010-11-10T19:31:00.002+08:00

*This is a wordy post* read it at your own ~~risk~~ time!

Hey there (:
I think I'm seriously putting on weight in every part of my body! Especially my chubby cheeks :( I've been munching real lot. Is not that I'm hungry yet desire to chew that type of feeling.

I realised that i needed exercises to some sort keep fit rather than accumulating fats during my sleep. So i attended sport and wellness despite being so worn out (lack of sleep mood) for an exchange of muscle aches that consist of my chest, back, stomach (this shows i didn't defeat the purposes of waking up early)

My Costing Test is really bad, bad paper, bad questions. All bad because it leave me in a dilemma bout solving it. Dang! No more confident again, seems like my stocks concept isn't that good. On the other hand time constraint that lead to panic thinking. Jet lag my brain :(

I should just stop procrastining &start working on my project!

For the moment, my heart stopped beating.

2010-10-31T15:54:00.003+08:00

It was Clement's birthday on the 28th of October. We celebrated on both days (28 &29October) Officially celebrated on the 29October held at around Resort World? His mum booked a room in that hotel so he invited Hannah and me to tour and take a look. Whoa it's really nice, what an eye opening scene (: His mum and his auntie really played a good host, enjoyed ttm !

Even though the number of friends going is quite upsetting however we still managed to have fun! After that we planned to catch a movie at Plaza Sing but the time slot is so limited that we need to wait for 2hours.

In addition given the time, our stomach is growling too. So yes, Fish&co for dinner! The fish is super fresh but at the same time since it fried with flour &oil you tend to get sick of it after a few intakes. Make my stomach so bloated !

But i know you know, we could do more.

2010-10-21T22:38:00.003+08:00

Project project &project that taken up majority of my brain space. Racking my brain for answer, scattering my brain for better solutions.

'Good oh good !' sometimes i wish i could really be in the same group as my close friends thus everything could be better &more efficient.

However for the better, i became more independent.

I'm in an misery &no one could comfort me. Oh yeah!

2010-10-13T20:18:00.003+08:00

Days aren't the same, changes are recurrent. Dwindling those happy moments. I no longer feel the existence of you now. You're making me stronger in a way wrong. Perhaps i'm numb that i no longer recognize my own feeling/emotions. I still be able to smile &just forget this matters momentarily.

I'm really clueless bout your stupid actions. Thanks for leaving me in suspense, hanging me in the air helplessly.

why are you just so abnormal ?!

Landed back to Singapore.

2010-10-10T18:29:00.002+08:00

I've landed safely in Singapore (: last night. Yesterday is one of the saddest day, when you see everyone's crying. The departing scene is always not welcome. Can you believe even the guys cried twice. Haha, but i didn't. They often comment that my heart is made of steel. I think i'm too emotionally etched. Even though i feel sad inside yet i refuse to let it out. I hate letting people see the fragile side of me.

A week is already enough to do the bonding let alone 2weeks. I've gained experience from there as well as making a great achievement by waking up 6 every morning to work (: I'm tougher than the usual (: I learn how to appreciate things even more now after comparing from what they have. Small things that already manage to make them content so easily. How much hardship they gone through as well as enjoying. I really salute them for being so hardworking. I swear they're really nice, you'll see them smile widely everyday. They're just so easy-going compare to singaporean (some)

How warm-hearted &friendly the way they are to even greet us during the first point of contact when we just reached Thailand.

Thanks for making this a fulfilment trip. Keep in touch(:

photos all in facebook, self service hehe.

Wasted.

2010-10-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Well, this time i really see it very openly after a day? They cancelled the night market trip when everyone was so into that trip. You can predict that, that's the main objective of the trip. I lost the purpose at the end of 1week. The thrill and excitment when you habour for so long just vanish with a sorry, exactly like pushing you off the cliff.

Come to think about it, i'm not satisfied with the clothes, shoes and bags. I haven get enough, totally different from what i imagine :( duh!

Talking bout attachment, i was attached to BIG C (free labor) we're assigned to try out all sort of different departments, gaining more experience. I was slacking throughout but i did some work too. You don't get paid so why work so hard? haha! I love the information counter &bakery department the best (: I get to test all sort of pastries! Yummy(:

The 2nd week was some Handicraft shops. Attraction for tourists, i think i'm literally wasting my time that lead me to ponder the negative. I went to the temple, to shake my fortune. Nothing going smoothly for me, how pathetic! I'm worried bout so many things! :( TONS of it okay.

I don't wanna spend my time jaded! freaking no point mann, like i'm wasting hours of my life. Okay call that a bonding between friends then.

I'm deprive of sleep, sleeping 6hours per day isn't enough right? I hate the sleepy feeling of pushing myself out of the bed with my eyelids struggling to fall off. Lousy complexion, rough hair texture.

I totally lost the drive to complete the entire oversea attachment. I wish to go back to singapore. But overall i'm okay still managable(: just plain whining.

The presence.

2010-10-03T12:45:00.003+08:00

Now i realised the comfort of my cosy home(:
But on the other hand, i learnt to be independent. Doing the laundry on my own, being away from my family &friends. It's seems like i'm disconnect from them.

To even appreciate them now,

Lastly, there's no place like home.

Oh yesyes, what's happening to my english after communicating with them? Every passage is just so abrupt. I don't see the link. You understand what i mean, i doubt so. Just forget it(:

p.s. i doubt my clothes is clean, so is the food there.

xoxo.

I'll be missing so many people out there(:

2010-09-25T21:27:00.003+08:00

Time really flies, the faster it goes the more my heart sank.I'll be missing so many of my darlings out there (: thanks for the wishes, i truly appreciate.

I think I'm going insane, i need to reach airport as early as 5:20AM? I hope i could wake up and as well as the people out there will be missing me toooooooo. I'll be back 2 weeks later &that's when my holiday is officially over :(

I'll enjoy great time, thanks shirin for the lovely notes &ikea's candy!

Think before you speak.

2010-09-18T22:51:00.003+08:00

Last night, i had my hand super itchy. I had these sudden redundant thoughts to trim my fringe. It really drives me to the extreme that i ended up laying my hand on the scissor. I over did it, yes 'congrats, for being so smart' my fringe look like a geek now. Headed to the salon for help it did some help however shorter :(

It add some damages to my looks. I'm downright depressed right now. People around me are kind enough with console. thankyou.

So here it goes, how could you feel deep within when one of the closest people on earth commented bluntly that you need plastic surgery on all features specifically? That moment of truth really struck me so badly. I was deeply affected such a 'remarkable' comment too distraught to even describe. Where have your conscience gone to?

Sugababes - ugly, is still song i'll always look to when it comes to this. Motivating song.

How do i make a choice?

2010-09-17T20:05:00.003+08:00

Counting down the days I'm left with a week more to go for my oversea attachmenttttt!

On the lovely Wednesday, i meet up with Yunru after exams to let my hair down to distress. Been bombarded with many negative thoughts. People always say 'don't dwell on the past anymore, what's over you take it as over' however those negative thoughts still creep back. Reviving the memories that is still fresh in my mind.

Hanging out at Orchard with her helps (: Ion, scape park, somerset313 seeing those clothes in all those cool shops everyone's desire to buy. The trend isn't improving at all, that's my perception afterall. Obviously outing with friends always make me laugh so much. So it means i did enjoyed, especially sitting in Xinwang's with your legs aching and sore after walking quite a distance.

Last night, i rummaged my red treasure box that keeps all my small birthday gifts or tokens. I came across a red small envelope from someone that used to be so close. I removed the plastic protecting the envelope pull open the seal as well as the card. I started mouthing with a heavy heart that reads 'remember me for the rest of your life, friends forever?' And the sudden question, what happen to us again? Why could our relationship strained so much? Looking at the photo makes me even more upset. I hope you're not expecting me to make a choice to choose, because i wanted both that i cherish so much in life.

From what you did, i dont hold any grudges because it doesn't matter anymore. However you not taking the initiative shows that you're not interested in this friendship anymore.

Not forgetting my close friends for playing suchan important roles in my life. Thank you, don't strain(: we'll keep in touch even if we're going seperate ways.

Finally i'm over with my flu jab, not as painful i thought hehe(:

'Sometimes you'll never know the value of moments until it becomes a memory'

It's never a fair cycle.

2010-09-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

Exam's over ! I think most probably people will be cheering out loud or jumping up high. I couldn't admit that i did sensed the relieve however there's time when the thoughts of not scoring well make me cringes. It haunt me almost every night, by recalling, imagining the worst case scenario, the outcome. Having the early preparation of my emotions that i need to face.

You know the feeling of putting in some much effort to make perfection when the outcome seems to fail, right? You know the sucky feeling inside, the unfairness thinking. Perhaps, i'm just plain slow in processing knowledge but there's a say 'practice makes perfect' i'm doing all the practices however it doesn't apply to the above statement anymore. I don't wanna be a disappointment, a letdown to anyone. I hate lousy grade that affects my GPA. A total letdown just stupidity. The higher the expectation the greater the disappointment :(

Not having any idea with my brain during Accounting paper, i made so many careless mistakes so many deductions nowwwwwwwwwwwww. Oh my! sickening. Moderation please!

'You love repeating history like a broken record' You spite me without knowing, you don't sense the sarcasm in my voice, your fault. If wasn't for you provoking, all this won't happen. You don't picture the start yet finger pointing. You made us both a fool now, a fool of everyone.

Thirty Seconds to Mars

2010-09-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

Many talking about love last time, but now a 360degree change to hurt.
&guys the cause of it. Like what happen?
They don't understand until they feel it completely,
&just tell them it's too late, not looking back in anger anymore because girls totally gave up.

Broken arrow.

2010-08-29T15:49:00.002+08:00

Whoa, dear readers! I'm back(: My bad for neglecting this space. You'll never realised how lazy i am to even use my laptop, ha ha! time constraint again.

I'm draining, same goes to my brain. Been going out for 3 consectives day. Today's sunday the perfect day to be at home, after 3 tiring days(: yet i couldn't deny that i enjoyed. I went back for extra lesson on the thursday, then to cityhall for study/shopping purposes. Friday back to school again, then teaching session till night. I'm a tutor ;p &Sat out, shopping @vivocity. Bought nothing because i'm close to broke, money money oh money, when are you going to fall off from the sky? Haha.

Yesyes, i caught step 3D on the tues(: Cool 3D effect, but head not functioning, perhaps not adapting to it!

alright, thats all(:

shall update more, xoxo

update you soon.

2010-08-19T20:29:00.003+08:00

My appreciation for having YOG holiday nowwwwwww.
School work school work, exam exams flooding soon.

But i still need my shopping break!

The perfect description

2010-08-14T13:07:00.003+08:00

'It's always at the forefront of my mind, every single waking and sleeping moments.

The hurt begins to . . . not quite disappear, but it's as though it evaporates so that it's always there in the air around me, ready to rain down when i least expect it.

Then when the hurt goes, anger takes its place, when the anger runs of steam, loneliness steps in to take over. It's a never ending circle of emotions; every lost emotion being replaces by another.'

adopted from cecelia ahern.

That very night i learned something important, you shouldn't try to stop everything from happening. Sometimes you're supposed to feel awkward. Sometimes you're supposed to be vulnerable in front of people. Sometimes it's neccessary because it's all part of you getting to the next part of yourself, the next day.

inactive.

2010-08-11T17:17:00.004+08:00

If i could prolong the deserted period of my blog, it would just jolly well went dead.

I missed the carefree moments when im free &easy with time.

When blogging is still a pleasure to me with no stress or time management problem.

It seems like exams is drawing near with YOG holidays, the best ample time to study.

Which means goodbye to blog momentarily. Revision kept stacking &time kept ticking away.

School always make me mentally tired as well physically too.

so you know i'll be away for a moment, don't lost track (:

tell yourself, cheer yourself.

2010-08-02T19:23:00.004+08:00

&you know when sadness came knocking on your door, days just aren't easy then. Whereas there's only a choice either to accept the forebonding or shun the thoughts away follow by forgetting.

You think 'it's not fair' putting in equally effort yet not paying it off like others. Your answer doesn't match with them, you jolly well accept the facts. Something that pricks from the thought of it. Nothing beats stupid by doing the extra that wasted approximately 15mins on something redundant/ not countable for marks.

Oh well, when people say 'move on' you nodded your head &smile (: to show them yes, i'm moving on. However your heart do not feel so, you felt deplorable inside. And you know nothing could help but comfort from friends. Like how much they care by comforting.

The higher the expectation the greater the disappointment, finger crossed!

Finally, tell myself. This isn't the end there's still end module to go (: buckup.

alive.

2010-08-01T01:15:00.003+08:00

hello, a brief update to show that i'm still alive &kicking.

After closing both eyes, everything turns out okay.

Depends on one's individual mindset.

Watched Inception, dang! i only understand 40% of the story.

Smack-down to earth realization/

2010-07-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

I absolutely. ~~trust~~ you,

After a day of being torment by negative thoughts, today's finally a better day. Yesterday i was completely driften away from happiness/life. I try so hard to concentrate solely on my work, yet the worst diverted my attention. That the unexpected started creeping in my mind again, gradually it stalled my movement. A pause to my mind, i let down my pen started to stare into blank air. Yet today, during taxation exam i wrote the wrong figure down despite my mind flashes the correct figure. I don't know whats with me, for understating the amount of months.

I had a hard time to play along with my reactions, i'll put a smile to my face when it's appropriate.

Feeling so fed up when my mind cant absorb others' explanation of my question. I lost focus, i lost track, i lost hope in myself.

But, but, not forgetting my friends is playing a great part to cheer me up (: I like today because yesterday was a dreadful day to me. Suddenly i feel a different after having the same feeling almost everyday to school. Learn to appreciate happiness, move on, flush the sadness away.

Uneven emotions.

2010-07-20T20:07:00.003+08:00

My mood used to form like a constant line, everything going straight &smooth but now nothing better than a jagged wave. I don't feel quite well, either I'm sick inside or is the weather behind all these?

I'm depriving the mood/interest to study, taxation exam as near as Thursday yet still no drive to mug constantly. My eyes playing tired, weary that leads me to sleep, having afternoon naps.

But the good side I'm getting more punctual than before and gradually motivate me even more to strive it (:

My skin getting more tan than before because i went swimming on sunday w shirin, glamourous to my surname! whoa.

However there's still no happy medium.

Oh yes, i hate wearing glasses to school. Now i really cherish the feeling of wearing contact lens.

Again, no happy medium. Life's weird, i mean my life.

bye.

Funny that.

2010-07-12T22:42:00.003+08:00

10July2010

My mum accompanied me to the optical shop to collect my all-ready glasses. Do some changes to the lenses, an add-on for my degree(: I personally think that relying on contact lens does not benefits besides beauty. After not wearing a proper degree glasses for decades, it came out weird for me, it left some giddiness to it. Something i need to get used to.

After that i went to meet shirin &clement to do ________ haha! secret! Even though i was late, but still the earliest among them all. We shopped for the materials and made our seats at Starbucks. Next we went to the counter front to order our drinks, i should have bought venti instead of grande. Basically more reasonable like just paying additional of $0.50.

&we lay hands on those papers, markers, spongepapers. Randomly, shirin take a look at the time, &comment that we're quite efficient as it's still early. But i find that we've been using up time for long! At least the efforts was visible to others &most importantly her!

It's was carefree doing all these handcraft work, so much fun plus bonding going on. Starbucks is a pretty nice and cosy place to chill, slack, study &more to goooooooooo. Especially the time taking photo, remaining the memories (:

There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart.

2010-07-11T00:27:00.003+08:00

Nothing appearing, not even the monstrous sight resurfacing. Yet inside, the worst hideous sight ever! What happen to our friendship, salvage or goodbye? I do care, how about you?

Every now and then, I'm toxicated by you gradually become too blinded and dimwitted(out of my mind), the undercover matters that's accumulating is going far way too overboard. Speaking out is a great challenge for me, maybe i'll never overcome it because I'm not trying. Perhaps a tad bit of it. How long it took me to gather my wits, i would rendered a fool now, goodness sake!

Me looking bubbly/strong on the surface however minuscule remarks could pull me down like strong gravitational force. Moreover still smiling, like nothing happened. I'm not speaking out. In other ways, you should feel or comprehend me.

Every cloud has a silver lining(:

2010-07-04T16:50:00.004+08:00

There's always a thousand and one thing happening. Yet this space isn't too appropriate to disclose. There are things that could one shot pull me down, there's thing that could put me on cloud nine. Various happenings, too complicated to handle.

Vacation coming to an end. Back to school days that bombard us with stress over &over again. This is life that we gotta' face, there's no hard &fast rule.

Slowly I've learn to be independent. I had this mindset that going out alone kills. After experiencing it, i felt a sense of satisfaction that I'm capable in doing things alone. Walking pass strangers feeling the crowds, sensing eyes staring at me being so self conscious about my appearance &how others lay their first impression of me however time changes everything. The perception of staring, awkward in a crowd &as well as being so self conscious gradually changed.

Recently some of my friends described me as crazy for swimming alone in the pool on a Sunday afternoon for two inexorable hours. This is a great achievement for me, I'm proud of myself. hoho(: And the scorcher Sunday afternoon left some tan-ness on my skin. Not that tan exactly for someone fair in complexion like me. But not that fair anymore :( after making comparison of my skin tone i did spotted the contrast. Sadly, i need to swim more due to some reason:(

Oh yes I'm capable of shopping alone too, after twice of yesterday incident. Sometimes even waiting for my friends momentarily.

Generally having sweaty palms isn't a great burden to me. But now i see the drawback, nope! it's never a good thing before. I'm just lagging behind to discover, i hate it so much. Such burden on me, i wish this is curable aside of operations to remove the swear glands. My palms sweat easier than the usual but not to the extend that it drips. This is awkward when it comes to skin contact &much more. How disgusted other feels about it, sweat! How mortifying! You'll see the implication of it &you'll feel how miserable i feel. I know no one's perfect, but i abhor this so much. Stupidly the more conscious i became the more it sweat, like sweating profusely. I hoping for it to sweat less, yet it turns out opposite.

Oh well, i know too chunky. I'm ending here, it's getting late (:

lastly I'm thankful for all my friends for being there for me consistently.
Love, yangmin, shirin, yunru, clement, hannah.

impossible.

2010-06-30T14:12:00.002+08:00

hello(: i need inspiration for a good start up. Unfortunately till now nothing appears or flash through my mind.

Everything is within my reach yet delaying &dragging always cause a failure to it. I'm such a failure, i always call myself that. I couldn't complete tasks on time, i failed to keep my promise. Reflection is done on myself, it comes to a point that i need to sleep early to adjust my body clock system. Sleeping early is never a drawback. However I've failed too, the important people in life advises me so, even the voice in my head. Guess I'm just too stubborn &indecisive.

Realistically, thought happiness is knocking at my door. Thinking that i'm gonna be someone happy in all sort of ways. However all this is just my thinking, not exactly real. I'm started to realised all my pre-mature flaws, demoralised. My confidence level kept decreasing slowly.

So good or bad?

Friday, Saturday &Sunday.

2010-06-23T14:17:00.004+08:00

Dear Friday
Thought i'll most probably be spending my day at home again, boring you know. Yet darling Shirin text ed me, she'll be able to swim today! So yeah, packed all my stuff and off to the pool (: Trivial matters that is capable to make us giggle in the pool for long. So much fun with dear shirin around filling me with laughter :D i like i like!

Saturday

Met up with yx was late like the usual. Headed to plaza Sing &the cathey. Nothing nice though, watched she's out of my league. Nice one! i like i like! hoho.

Sunday

Home alone! something that i dislike, so headed out with clement to study. Tampines Starbucks too lazy to travel to cityhall. So last minutes change of location haha!

Study Study &study, till huilan came and clement went off.

Wednesday(Today)

My stomach being very uneasy yesterday, the pain started in the afternoon prolong until the night. This isn't very normal for me or my stomach. Mum brought me to the doctor, diagnosed with gastric flu :( spread through airborne or sharing of saliva.

So then on, I'm grounded till i recover. Oh my, gonna coop at home till i recover there goes all my outings! dang.

Not satisfied.

2010-06-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

If stress kept piling up on me, i think all these have to come to an end. A full stop, period over.

i hate to say this, dilemma so indecisive.

Now tell me what to do,

Oh yes, how can you tell me.

When you don't know the entire matters/

my lips most probably sealed, only to close friends

Never could i like or welcome the way I'm feeling now, dang! bang!

goodbye .

California Gurls

2010-06-18T22:50:00.001+08:00

Gorgeous Katy Perry surround with all the sweet candy stuff (:
Cute MV, i like!

heartbeat.

2010-06-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

Been months, been decades that I'm refraining myself from shopping. I was so much in a desperate state to shop. Girls know how i feel, guys perhaps?

Because it's the term break, woohoooooooo! Momentary, i could let my hair down for the be stress free(: that's the main thing I'm looking forward, i need to take a break after stalling knowledge in my poor brain for long.

I can't resist any longer! Shopping scenes is flooding my mind, so yes i've decided as planned with shirin to visit Orchard &somerset yesterday (Saturday)

Shopping eats away the movie time. We prefer shopping to movie. Somerset313 New Look was the first we visited. The prices there isn't very reasonable so we headed to Forever21 still nothing nice :( except for the hair accessories.

Jaunted down to ION then Shaw House &FarEast. We didnt make any deal there, like again up to no avail or maybe the price matters!
Ended up with tired legs, we walked back to ION! I've make a deal there bought a Topshop handbag. &i'm lovin' it!

Oh yesyes, cam whore in the toilet. The toilet lighting is freaking nice, &something funny happened. I was so blur in a state of mind that i nearly walked in the gents.

Ion New look was next, &my foot isn't cooperating with me. It leave my cramp on my sole that hardly could lift my foot up to walk that i needa drag :( so horrible.

So yes, left at 10plus. We call it a fun day(:

i know there's 2 different sizes of photo. Problematic photobucket, dont know how to cooperate!

:):

2010-06-09T21:02:00.003+08:00

Whoa! Exams is over quite long ago. I'm lagging in update! Hoho, finally my life is filled with more colours &spices. A break is all i need, exams stress is slowly reducing(:

But school isn't going any better, speeding up so fast that im having difficulties catching up. Well, perhaps this is life!

Okay, finally could do some shopping with my darlings shirin, hannah, yunru &more!

I can't wait (!)

Dubious.

2010-06-03T00:23:00.002+08:00

Too disappointed, speechless.

I'll smile, to ease the disappointment as well as bring joy to my voice (over the phone)

I'll masked it well, to void your suspicious

but my heart isn't feeling great.

Oh well, jolly well sleep.

Love is forever?

2010-05-27T21:17:00.003+08:00

For this while, i'm kinda hook up with this song. When you'll falling in love, this song does do some romantic scenes in your mind. Oh yes, observe the lyrics too.

If one day, i'm feeling too emotionally battled. My friends are always there for me, so much of being my listening ears. Lastly, i love you friend &friends(:

too lost.

2010-05-25T23:22:00.003+08:00

The below video clip is titled Ugly by Sugababes. Old song though, but it's nice! It was brought up by clement which means this song is noticeable! &your hurtful comment prove this video so right. Guess im destined with this song. Motivated! &move on over with your undesirable comments.

People are all the same, And we only get judged by what we do , Personality reflects name , And if I'm ugly then So are you .So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody ,And never realises how it affects somebody , And you bet it won't be forgotten, Envy is the only thing it could be.

Superlover.

2010-05-20T20:38:00.003+08:00

Tell me, tell me? When will my eyesight regain to its crystal clear vision? Relying on contact lens everyday isn't the best option for my eyes, once it's removed the blur double image start reforming. My glasses degree isn't doing great, just failed on my degree. On the other hand it makes me look like a potential nerd!

Recently someone conducted an eye check for me, i was shocked with the degree of my eyes. An increase of 125 for both eyes, can you believe it?! Somehow people with perfect eyesight is 'oh-so-lucky'. Pathetically, just a stone throw distance from the mirror &there goes my clear vision of my face, the features smudging away. A pathetic plight of state.

&yeayea, i've throw away my 100degree contact lens, like finally! I've bought my new ones, with shirin's accompany(: The guy who served me is so cute! Haha, he talked to me, checked my eyes &so on (confidential) hehe! So relieved, he did conduct an eye check for me &my contact lens edge was a bit torn. &i replaced it with the new ones, sealed open &i couldn't find the contact lens floating. So it was an empty container with saline solution yet no contact lens! luckily i tried there so else i was conned! haha,

Had no idea, actually shirin shares the same mindset as me. She told me, he's not bad so i goes like 'yeayea'. So much of being such a hilarious shirin, he's labelled as shirin's husband.

You know girls like me, tend to think far, think out of the box, sometimes even imposed the thinking of the impossible. I realised actually i gossip too much, 60% of my conversation spent are gossipping. All those gossip juices should be eliminated from my mind. This is no good, i should reduce, change my mindset for the better? Even clement noticed that, it's pretty obvious though. Give me the time to adapt to all these changes.

guilt-stricken.

2010-05-17T19:46:00.004+08:00

I've unlock my blog. It's nothing actually, no post updated &etc. Hmmmmmm, for the first time in my life I've successfully cracked an egg! Bravo isn't it? Haha ! I'm so proud of myself ! Cooked noodles with egg &scallops, not really delicious though. Haha, such a failure in cooking. So don't ever ask me to do a hand-on on cooking.

Exams around the corner and I'm not prepared at all. No motivation to study anymore, so this is when I'm starting to lose out ! If only I'm entitle to magic, to cast magic spell. And i could see perfection, in almost every ways.

Oh well, period. Hasn't been studying during the weekends due to class chalet. It was quite amazing, with significant happenings.

upon cogitation, its came out to a result that I'm isn't a good friend. I cant bring myself to speak out, yet avoiding. Escaping reality is what I'm best at, so I'm such a disappointment. The act of being a coward,
Everything isn't sailing smoothly, total hindrance. Life's not bout happiness anymore (...)
but stacking with problems, dwelling &swelling. And it's that difficult. But yes, smile like i'll used to.

Withstand it through the night .

2010-05-08T13:33:00.003+08:00

There goes, there goes all my words, my words that was reforming/accumulating in my mind for the past few minutes. Unfortunately, i failed to recall it. I drafted it through my mind. I pictured the words, the words that belongs here. Yet, it was close to blank now.

Could i indicate this as 'short term memory' ? Perhaps, jotting down could help improve my capability of memorising. Oh well, enough of whining. On one hand, i enjoy the process of whining. On the other hand it's draining to others.

Today it's my favourite, because it's Saturday. Could time just stalled, during Saturday? Stalled &forward time is 'oh-so-mighty awesome' (: Majority benefits stand on Saturday, it's the day to backtrack the weekdays lessons, to catch up or maybe to release the stress resurfacing through the weekdays.

For this instance, it hit me down with realization that I'm starting to lose out in studies term. Or should i said, it isn't simple anymore? That's my fullest that couldn't stretch beyond, no over my benchmark? This is where i stand, no further?

I guess, May is the busiest period of all. Too many events, adding on, exams fall on that period too. Speaking bout rejection. How can one say 'No' in a sheer way? A word that is easy to pronounce, easy to spell, easy to write. However how are you gonna reply to a 'No' ? Can you reply like you're actually acceding? Once rejected to others and you're already pinpointed, matter-of-facts? Understanding is another matter, but how many people understand? A quarter of the population? I'm not understandable too.

Yesterday, I don't get to feel your presence &i managed to survive through the numb feeling of mine. Good or bad ? I need to do a sorting to my feeling, or else i'm gonna neglect my studies. To strike out a healthy balance isn't simple,

Lastly, i'm lost for words. Such an abrupt ending.

haywire thoughts!

2010-05-04T23:55:00.003+08:00

Dear oh dear! What a good start ! Dolefully, my mind's playing chaotic today! Nothing but problems again. See the implication of it that hurl harmful affect to my brightly positive mindset. But closefriends are always my listening ears, or else this should be capable to drive me berserk. Momentarily, i thought things are better but yea. I brought damage along, yet i need to salvage the situation now. Getting my hint is as easy as ABC, reasonably disclosing is so not me. My mindset is barried by being too egoistic, refraining me to speak out, forget it.

Savin' me, savin' my heart.

2010-05-02T16:38:00.004+08:00

Alright, i shall proclaim school life / life's perfect with friends like Shirin, Liqi, Hannah, Routing, yunru, azura, clement &yangmin! (:

Fighting for time isn't an easy task, or shall i say grasping for time isn't easy because time just simply ticks so fast that you couldn't be on time to slow time down. This is the magic of time, beyond capabilities to decelerate it. Oh well, if only I'm someone faster to be on track then.

I headed out yesterday to meet yx, meet at interchange & took a train down to cityhall. Haha, was idling around marina square, due to insufficient planning, Haha, so we roamed around the spacious Marina Square. I couldnt make my way to carrefore mann, such a failure.

Ended up, making liqi &shirin came over to find us! Haha, thankyou(: was planning to watch movie but yea labour's day caused a failed to.

&then went seperate way with shirin &liqi, haha. &i'm so guilty for not picking up their calls, didnt sense the vibration from my phone.

(too lazy to contine) haha. but yes, i did enjoy (:

tight schedule

2010-04-29T17:24:00.002+08:00

An update, like finally? what else? other than being too busy with life.

Because im one consistent student okay, thats whyyy?

haha. I know all these just make no sense tooo, forget it!

btw, i'm ditching this blog aside Haha, what else again? than being in a packed schedule.

Because im one consistent student, like again.

Hopefully, i could strive well then. As in i need to manage my time &learn to say 'no' in a nicer way, rejection isn't nice but yea for the better.

Dinner with my friends later on, &outing on saturday. &where's my time to study?

lastly, i got more photos to upload. but i've failed too.

Rock that body.

2010-04-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

Whoa! i realised that I'm not being consistent now. As in blogging &stuff like that. I'm way behind time &isn't on track. Oh well, maybe I'm slow! I cant grasp thing freshly! Haha, that makes me needa revise one more time at home. Time is so precious &limited in that sense.

Haha, I've been real busy too! You know you know, juggling school work &hanging out with friends. I'm been eliminating my shopping time alright. I went out for a purpose, a real reason not shopping. &i miss shopping now! i dread going to school to learn new lesson everyday. Slow is always a drawback.

Yea, met out with yangmin yesterday. &had cca duty with corene&baozhen, then straight met up with Bishun, nicholas, huilan to Giant the day before yesterday to check all the prices, &cheekang's house to check the chalet prices &so on. Dingen came, stayed till 10. Went home, exhausted.

Oh ya, cut hair with yangmin too! with treatment because my hair is dying! Reasonably, my hair condition is never good :( &i looked like a potential noob now. After the haircut, headed to tampines library to do my homework &i bumped into this particular guy that i met in bedok library. I recognized through his hoodies &worst of all I'm wearing the same damn shirt too! &it's only my second time wearing.

alright! I'm looking so weird now!

Drained.

2010-04-14T17:35:00.006+08:00

Sad, disappointing, agonized. Well, holiday's OVER ! This is so saddening & maddening. OKAY, tell you I got to know my new teachers, all female. I got new introduced to new subjects like advance accounting, Taxation &Managing Finance. This is the worst term ever, theory theory & theory, as dry as ever.

First day of school, reported to the main lecture theater. Whats more other then introducing all the new subjects. & the section head's speech. The talkative me was busy talking throughout &not being attentive to her talk. Suddenly, i heard her calling 'SABRINA from QT' ha! New class name some more, i was flabbergasted! Looked at my new teacher with a stiff expression. & she ask me to stand so i did stand. Was kinda blur, & so actually they're calling the top 5% students from accounting.

Whoa! A sense of pride (:

& gradually i was appointed to be the class rep, another oh so shocking news.

Hopefully, this term wont be that tough. I wish that its more manageable than i expected.

Btw; Today lesson was so dried & boring.

I nearly doze off, 8AM to 4PM, theory throughout & entitled to only 1 hour of break.

Sadly, i didn't really grasp well with all the explanation by my teachers.

Oh well, this is gonna be so stressful then. Bye

I never told you.

2010-04-11T22:43:00.004+08:00

WHOA! haha, anti climax

I shouldn't start with a WHOA! because it shows that i'm very happy/excited. But the facts is I'm burning deep inside, i'm so heart wrenching over something. Sometimes, tears could just well up so easily. I felt the tears pricking my eyes when i thought of it.

Sometimes, ITS JUST BETTER TO HAVE ONE MORE MONTH OF HOLIDAY!

what a wrong description, i sound like I'm out of love! haha.

Today's the very last day of school holiday, goodbye holidays.

I know you'll never come back, i mean the date &year.

Finally, tmr shall be my second year!

&then graduate from accounting! Haha, but yea my education wont end like this :(

or else, no future la!

okay, bbye. hahaha

Scanning through your mind.

2010-04-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hoho, went back to school for duty. Oh well, like the same! We did nothing, except for slacking &snap snap snap of photos.

&you know what, my battery almost failed on me. Went almost flat, but at least it manage to survive throughout!

After school, meet up with Bishun, Cheekang, Zahid, Nicholas, Beatrice, Huilan, Corene &yangmin to discuss some chalet matters!

Photo shall upload other time!

Whoa!

critically ashamed.

2010-04-08T15:24:00.004+08:00

Hi (:

what a short greeting, okay obviously I've been facing problems with myself. So back to blogger, this is a non verbal way of expressing the way i feel.

(Headed to Bugis on tuesday with Adeline(: )

The mystified feeling lurking within me, word failed to describe. The days to school reopening outnumbered my holidays.

(After that, met up with Sakinah &yuxuan)

Yet a failure like me, accomplish nothing! 'Greatly nothing' matter of fact. I've quite a number of resolutions during my holidays. Perhaps i should stop procrastinating.

I spent my holiday on outing trip with friends or either rotting at home like a free loader. Oh gosh! smack me hard.

But at least we did complete baozhen's present during the holiday! (: with the help of corene.

IM TALKING BOUT 30032010

2010-04-04T20:04:00.002+08:00

Speaking bout 30032010, as planned for a girls's outing trip!

Called Beatrice, Yangmin, Huilan, Corene &Baozhen. Corene &me was more of organizing it, dealing with problems.

From what i mean problems, im referring to last minutes back out &stuff. It was difficult dealing with them, but after some persuasions its done.

Just Acia for dinner &roamed around Suntec(:

&done!

BACK TO 29032010.

2010-04-02T15:00:00.002+08:00

Oh well, like i did mentioned. I did accompanied Yangmin with Huilan to polyclinic.

Ended up, I'm late in meeting Adeline. Haha, but i think I'm sure to be late even not meeting them. So no one to blame, except myself (: i cant turn over a new leaf, haha! Beyond redemption.

Freaking late for 30mins, deeply apologise to adeline for having to wait with her painful heels &heavy laptop. Alright i did help her to carry too! &it was not an easy task!

I thought the fashion was better in Forever21 &newlook. But to my utter dismay, it was much worst than i expect. So thats the trend now? I've no idea too.

Was being treated dinner at SuperDog, thankyou!

Headed cotton on, yea! Make a deal there, not a bad one. except the sizes is too big for me again.

New Look shoes rock! Even though i didnt get any shoes from there. Haha.

Good music, good life?

2010-03-30T23:03:00.003+08:00

This is an brief update!So yea, Monday accompanied Yangmin with Huilan to polyclinic! &met up with Adeline, what's more other then shopping? Haha.Today, Tuesday right. Met up with Corene, baozhen, huilan, beatrice &yangmin. Was funnnnnn ! located at Cityhall(:so for the meanwhile, try listening this song. It's pretty nice (:
&i'll know you'll be back for more? Haha, thankyou!

Can't you be less contagious!

2010-03-28T20:13:00.003+08:00

Oh drat! My clock in my laptop shows 8:16PM.

Dolefully, i'm still a home alone. It was since morning, once i woke up it was me with my hollow house!

Breakfast, lunch &dinner with no one, except my phoney that accompany me through thick and thin (: I'm grateful with gratitude, so don't ever die on me in future Haha. The only reliable sources was actually my laptop &television that supplies me with MTV, Channel V &Cartoon network 'the tom &jerry's show' one great hilarity cartoon.

The girl in the house, was so much of a freeloader. Eventually, the oily greasy mould on my over panel was no more tolerable for me. Been such a torment/eyesore to me, for decades. I muster the courage to scrub vigorously for the stubborn stain to peel off. Its too stubborn to stain off, so i took the rough green sponge-like &scrubbed it with effort. Yea, it's working! &I'm contented too. I spent half &hour or more scrubbing, working my ass on it. oops, haha.

It's spic &span now, tedious job!

Speaking bout yesterday, was a joke that happened onto Huilan. Firstly i took my sophie kinsella book out pretending it to be one of Times's book. Then i put it my bag &yangmin did fall for it. However she looked claim still. So yea, told her the facts &done.

The funniest part happens on Huilan, i did the same to her. &she gives me the looks like she didnt care. Oh well, i thought i've failed!

&She walked her own way in the spacious Times, but little did i know she was actually walking out. Only realized it when i'm asking her to see the identical book displaying on Times's shelve. &she told yangmin she's afraid that the siren might ran. In simple, she don't want to be implicated. Funny that!

If only, you're there witnessing it. I bet you'll laugh your ass off! Haha. oopsy.

Falling slowly.

2010-03-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

I could assume that i'm really weird. I had this sudden craving for Macdonald hotcakes the previous night. So i randomly texted yangmin & Huilan, yea they're real steady. Despite the fact that i'm facing difficulties dozing off i'm still considering whether to wake up early for breakfast the next morning which is this morning (:

I dreamed of nice dreams. Abrutly i woke up, i tried to compose back to sleep with a heavy heart. I knew it was morning with the pressure suppressing me that i need to wake up early cause me to sleep less soundly.

Met up with yangmin &Huilan. I was wanting to go out with them after breakfast, however mum wants me to go to my cousin's house. Alright, i'll abide to her.

Left cousin's house in the evening, headed to interchange met up with yangmin&huilan again, funny that.

I'm given 2 choices, but both isn't right. My heart gave away, my mind went blank. Either option wasn't nice.

You don't care.

2010-03-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

Who's having a foul mood now? Do you feel like stabbing someone in their back &run away? Scold &swear like no one's business. Scream like every one's deaf. Having freaking attitude in replying others, like they have no feeling.

Jeez, I'm one retard fellow. My mood couldn't be any better now. Damn, why why why? If only i could switch my feeling off .

I went back to school for duty, with corene&Baozhen. Damn, I'm a heavy sleeper, i woke up at 12:10pm when I'm supposed to meet them at 1:00pm. I'm as late as usual again.

Incapable, again I'm screwed up!

blah.

2010-03-25T23:08:00.007+08:00

Hmmm, let me senseeeee. Is any kind souls out there willing to deliver my temporary favourite M&M milk chocolate outside my doorstep? Im enjoying the one &only last chocolate melthing in my tongue! For the better, probably the next afternoon. Huuhuuu, what the! Like you know my address. Im such a lunatic!

By the way, Tuesday was one fun day! I had a trip with Hannah &Yunru to get my 'oh so long ago' chingay pay! Whoa.

Forever21, Newlook! &more yet nothing nice again. Could you believe this? I took 4 clothes sized 'S' from Forever21 to the fitting room! &NOTHING FITS ME WELL! The size does matters not me! Im fit for size 'XS'. &Yunru left!

In addition, given the material it's not worth for money too! Im kinda desperate to make a deal there, but sadly NONE!

Jaunted down to Bugis Street bought a dress &a skirt! Pretty satisfied, though i didnt get a chance to try it. Luckily it does fits me well! I'm contented, yea bought a pink scandal from Rubi with Hannah too!

Know how im feeling, alright. &Don't treat me that way.

QE CLASS CHALET ROCKS!

2010-03-24T17:22:00.005+08:00

During these 2 days, 20mar &21mar. Had our class chalet, though the number of people going is quite disappointing however it was still fun after all! But obviously the more the merrier! So common, mannn.

Met up with Clement, Xiaoman, peiwen at pasir ris interchange, then bumped into routing! Haha, went in the chalet. &there goes Jeroen, Waisiang &sky.

Watched Scary movie 2, i tell you its damn hilarious &disgusting. Haha, went to ehub to get the foods! &it lumped up to $161+ woah! Damn heavy!
Start the fire at 7plus? with the help of jeroen, waisiang, sky, hweeli &more not forgetting xuewen preparing all the rawfoods! great efforts everyone.

Snapping photo, almost all the time. Talk, laugh &gossip.

It was fun la! Slept for a few hours, damn tired.

went home, booooo! on the bed.

Manythanks to Yunru, routing, jeroen, sky, waisiang, xuewen, hweeli, xiaoman, peiwen, shirin, liqi, clement, denise, &not forgetting mr quek &miss angie!

&photos not in sequence!

Corene's Birthday!

2010-03-24T16:33:00.006+08:00

Decided to meet earlier, however as usual i was late.But not as late as huilan, But she's has a reason beneath it. So my bad

A train to cityhall, so yea we made our trip around that area.

Raffles City was first then Suntec city followed by Marina Square.

Dinner was settled there, Just Acia.

Delicious, yo!
Friends that tagged along, obviously Corene, Yangmin, BaoZhen, HuiLan, Ximin.
First time in the row, so many came! AWESOME! (:

oh baby baby.

2010-03-17T22:11:00.005+08:00

Few more hours to corene's Birthday! &Sim3 was fun, however it was all in Chinese. tough cookie mannn! If only i could read chinese fluently. Alright!

here it goes.

No more.

2010-03-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, yesterday it was all yesterday. It hit me well &realized that everything is not gonna fulfil. Oh well, so im gonna wash it all away &flush it down the drain. Seriously, my mind is draining. So i've made up my mind to play the cool role instead. No, i won't go worrying over your reply. Because it doesn't relate me at all. Worrying only makes one's suffer, so yea you can actually change the way you feel by switching your mindset.

By the way, had a meet out with Baozhen, Huilan, Yangmin &ximin for some discussion. The good reunited feeling, haha! Alright even went for a swim still ever so fun! Whoa.

After swimming, headed to bugis &home.

It isn't nice to hear/see girls going so sad over guys. Sometimes all the loving have to an end.

&& i wish you well, girls!

My weaknesses said this to me : You're too easily defeated .

2010-03-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

Out with Sakinah ( . . . )

I wanna adjust my way of thinking. If only my brain is less stubborn.
Forget it, forget it. Please stop this right now.
Tell yourself, it's better to stop it now.

You can call me 'Miss Moody' for the moment,
nights .

CHINGAY.

2010-03-11T21:06:00.006+08:00

Working at SporeFlyers, so fun!

Haha, starting up!

Who wants TIGER?

Sparkling firecrackers.

Fancy slacking more than working, it's like we're paid to watch the concert. Haha(:

End of performance.

End at 11 plus.

Not pinning any high hopes.

2010-03-08T14:38:00.005+08:00

Whoosh, been quite a time (: down with WritingForBusiness, left with 2 more to go. The paper was much better than i expected. This is no ordinary people like theory or practical but it was English based subject with a mixture of letter writing. So yea, it kinda benefits those who's English pro

Phew! Tell you, i almost went berserk the previous night. I was desperately, asking peeps to wish me luck. So to those who wish me;

WAY TO GO, I APPRECIATE IT (:

&I LOVE THE AUTO LUCK WISHING PEEPS YO.

Previous night &morning was a tragic. I couldn't sleep and woke up at 6plus in the morninggggggg. My stomach isn't cooperating. It left some pain &makes my wanna puke. But sour plum save it. Alright, cheers ! i need my rest .

too confusing to handle, damn!

2010-03-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

Katy perry, too hot & gorgeous!

Wish me luck before my exams, alright/

&i wish nothing goes wrong, bout you to me.

I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING &YEAH.

2010-02-28T17:57:00.001+08:00

Not quite bad, but nice music video :D
THAT'S ALL !

B R E A K .

2010-02-27T00:09:00.004+08:00

EXAMS IN ONE WEEK TIME .

with the usual stressed up feeling, its never fails to accompany me.

I wish so hard that i could complete my IAC paper. Time constraint for everyone mannn.

Alright, i'll be back soon.

Don't lost interest.

2010-02-20T15:58:00.000+08:00

Many photos &post are pending, like whatever !
laziness &insufficient time are the cause of it .

okay, worked at chingay yesterday.
tiring, with sunburn.
supposed to be working today, but yea enough manpower ==,

CLASS BBQ.

2010-02-16T13:01:00.007+08:00

classyear bbq, photo still not upload.

On the 12th feb.

Class bbq was real awesome, many thanks to those who attended &their efforts ! Making this a success, &reunion after not meeting for decades. I see the difference in many, &so do they noticed. Hweeboon, Kiaboon, Hilmi, Fatin, Kokfai, Yangmin, Bishun, Dingen, pengheng, elden, melvin, sodiq, sharizad, fathu, joey, Jasmine, Cheekang, Aiman, Huilan, XiuYin, &last but not least Nicholas the organizer (:

Ever so good, having a chance to see them again. Though the price for each person wasn't quite appropriate. Some stay up through the night, some left quite early due to having work the following day.

Sat at the big rock with Yangmin&huilan. Reminiscing those secondary memories, the happy &unhappy moments. Thinking about how fast time flies.

Huilan dozed off in 2 different intervals. Yangmin&me went off, &there goes angry/grumpy huilan. (hilarious)As the night went darker, the clock ticks to midnight the no. of people went lesser too. Left with Dingen, Cheekang, Nicholas, Kokfai, Bishun, Yangmin, huilan &me.

(bbq time, all the girls are so hardworking)
Eyes was kinda dried leading me to feel quite sleepy, all thanks to my contact lens drying.

morning,

Such a coincidence, saw Xuewen &sky too.
Once again, do organizer more event then (:

A brief update.

2010-02-14T12:36:00.003+08:00

Happy CNY !

To the cool peeps, who's reading thisssssssss .

&class bbq post still pending/ (:

off to malaysia.

the reason.

2010-02-10T18:56:00.005+08:00

So yea, lesson was short again. Wonderful, isn't it? 2 sweet hours &dismissed.

As planned in the morning to accompany hannah to orchard to get her pay. Changed in school, here comes orchard!

i was so madly deeply in love with this dress, however poor quality equals no buying. No firm sewing to fasten the beads from dropping.

Here come the shoes section, ever so lovely.

Observe the heels, the 5inches hell high heels.

&yes, this killer heels spare no mercy. the immediate effect that bites your foots.

we aimed all the shops with cool clothes, pretty nice mannn(: forever21 was even greater! empowered.

New look was actually losing out, but it's okay! new clothes arrives almost everyday?

Oh gosh, im so hungry having dinner outside. Yet needa wait for huilan, arghhhhhhhhhhhhh !

anti social.

2010-02-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

So i did some spring cleaning of my room, it was in a tragic state and i'm not kidding. You can use words like 'horrible, messy, dusty' to best describe it. My entire Sunday was ruined. All thanks to my messy/disorganized sister, fancy putting/stacking her papers everywhere. I'm done clearing &cleaning her shelve, however mine's not ! Okay, this is no gooodddddddd.

oh, so random.

changed person.

2010-02-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

I bought my new earpiece, brand: Sennheiser! Awesomely cool &it even comes with a 2 years warranty. Whoa ! Again, headed to esplanade library to study with huilan. &next met up with Sakinah at bedok library to help her with her project stuff (related to blog).

&from there, i even met with 2 most not gentlemen guys. Sakinah's notebook battery almost went dead so i went to approach that 2 guys &they told me this "my laptop wouldn't last without the plugs-in"

let's contradict to a conclusion.

2010-02-05T20:26:00.006+08:00

(hidden drug)went to collect my new passport with clement &yea studied at esplanade library(:

Here it goes, human feelings are so unpredictable. I used to have a strong sense of satisfaction, after being on the verge of exempting a subject. Once i was permanently exempted, during that pending moment it gives me time to cogitate. &soon all the thinking(s) come into a conclusion.

I started to have a sense of regret-tion.
what comes into my mind is, after all the hard work we slogged through.
the entire process of composing script, memorising, rehearsing &acting out in front of the teachers. Isn't easy at all.

Commenting on a critique, that makes one hand so sore from writing.
mock exams, we gone through the soreness too, isn't nice either.

Gone through so much in memorising the oh-so-wordy textbook with so much effort, in continuous recapping for umpteen times.

Such a pity, all those just flushed thoroughly. I'm left with a final role play and a theory exam. at least i gain credit from it, whereas i don't have to work so hard for others subject.

yet my biggest fear, still remains as WRITING FOR BUSINESS :(

Yeah, presentation over. it was a brief presentation, from the remarks of my teacher.
Supposed to have my role play next week, yet it already exempted (cancelled) too confusing to handle.

I was rushing mad late this morning, woke up late. Waited for the freaking bus for like 16mins. another options was 22mins &15mins. Just killed my patience/

Somewhere in between.

2010-01-30T15:12:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, i screwed my IAC paper. I spent the whole lot of time checking my figures precisely. Unaware of the last 15mins, until the invigilator announced it. I rushed through, being unable to think properly. My brain was jammed. However, i managed to complete it within the very last 15mins. BUT I ADDED THE WRONG FIGURES TO THE STOCK EVALUATION CARD. Everything affected then, so long marks :(

Forget about it, there's still end of year paper then. Parkway with hannah for some purposes (clothes, more) &somerset313 was next. Awesomely cool, forever21! I failed to resist temptation, so ended up i bought 2 new clothes home.

Orchard Central, beautiful! I'm at 11th storey high with nice scenery.

Nice decoration!

it was fun(:

cool lyrics, you know.
Lyrics adopted from The Fray (how to save a life)
Step one you say we need to talk. He walks you say, sit down it's just talk. Smiles politely back at you. You stare politely right on through. Some sort of window to your right. She goes left and you stay right. Between the lines of fear and blame and you begin to wonder why you came (. . .)

Jesse Mccartney (!)

2010-01-26T20:41:00.005+08:00

Hey, i'm down with lesser assignment nowwww(: but that doesn't mean im too free either :(

btw, i had Service Excellence CA3, critique on a service breakdown today.

Friday, IAC. Feb, Bfs presentation &roleplay on the way.

Nothing better to do(:

So we shall anyhow, add words to song title &so on.

insufficient.

2010-01-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hello (: im here for an update.

Anyway, tmr is the deadline for submission of my report. I'm almost done with it, except for some touching up.

&Next week, gonna be real busy: Service excellence &Intermediate accounting test.

All the best :D

2010-01-17T14:59:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to esplanade library, so upon walking through the tunnel way. Saw a row of galleries, displaying all those already executed prisoners. It's super artistic but scary at the same time.
Click to enlarge to read, more about them. There's more, but i'm too lazy to upload! Haha.
One of the most noble prisoner that skipped his last meal 'world peace'
Www.lastmealsproject.com

Beautiful, seashell(:

&Routing was so "early" the opposite. She's damn late to the max mannnn, hahaha! Luckily there's clement accompanying me or else i'll burn her alive &drink :S

This piece of artwork is made up of plastic bags, believe it? So much hard work in it.

With Routing in the toilet,

Another snapshot of the shell!

Shadow of Clement, Me &Routing

amazingly beautiful .

Don't you feel like owning it ? I wish i could(:

Entirely filled with shell(:

What an eye opening.

Before leaving (:

So yea, we studied IAC &SVE in the library &dinner at Burger King.

Unavailable.

2010-01-12T16:30:00.003+08:00

You know during your busiest time of your life. 24hours around the clock, is never enough. The hungry desire to reach your hands out in the air to grasp the seconds and minutes to decelerated it.

Nowadays, teachers are getting more vicious. All they do is just throwing assignments and left us to pick up all the pieces, even worst when they gave us such a short span of time to complete it.

- Writing for Business report (800-1000words)

- Service Excellence role play script (memorising/rehearsing)

- Business Finance studies (PowerPoint slide, presentation)

- Service Excellence CA3 is around the wee corner, critic on a service breakdown.

so long, readers!

Love is so beautiful on TV.

2010-01-09T15:26:00.007+08:00

Another multi-post.
After realization, nothing hook me up so much, except for buying clothes! I'm so highly addicted to that, clothes on malls tempted me greatly; to try, evaluate &if it's a positive looks. Well then I'll gladly walked to the counter &hand over the money for an exchange of clothes.

However, mum had always show disapproving signs to me. Okay, i got it. &i shall stop &get over that addiction. So Friday, i met up with Sakinah. Bugis was our destination, studied at the study lounge with sakinah munching, not forgetting myself.
Next we roamed around Bugis, headed to Dorothy Perkins. Something nice caught my eyes, so mesmerising &so do sakinah. But from that moment, i'm actually trying to shun off the intention to buy. Sadly after fitting it for Sakinah, i realised it's looks so nice then. Instead it add on more to my intention to buy, however i'm still resisting it. The only moment i gave up was when Sakinah asked me 'which colour &size you wanna buy' Okay, it totally change my no-buy intention to a yes-buy intention.
Not bringing enough money saved me, but sakinah's solution of borrowing drained me. Utterly hard moment of time, but I'm still resisting. I saw sakinah making the transaction over the counter, the difficult moment like looking at someone sniffing glue while you got nothing more to spare. I'm like an drug addict.
I thought I've made a great accomplishment by not buying, however it's daunt me. I even dreamed of buying it. How horrible, forget it. I'LL BUY IT !

MORALE OF STORY, I GAVE UP. haha. &&my poor fish died on me, after a year of surviving &entertaining me. Thanks :(
Top photo : WFB so borrinnnggggggg so decided to take photo with jeroen &routing
Photo with Hannah during IAC, lesson. I look like a drug addict again,
Study lounge with sakinah.

ordinary now.

2010-01-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

After holidays over, so here come school ! Well, first thing in the morning, Mrs Neo gave us a piece of pink paper &it stated horribly 'write a 800 to 1000 words report'. Woah! Pure stupidity. They even made amendment to the timetable and was given a new accounting lecturer. Her teaching was way too slow as compared to Mr Wong. Nevertheless, it's actually benefits some student. So i'm in the process of adapting her teaching style &methods.

There's an increase in my school population. You can name them 'noob' or classified some under the 'noob' ,'potential noob' ,'advance noob' category. Those potential noob that wore their land yard outside the school. Okay this is super meannnnn! Haha.

Recently, i'm facing problem with my phone bill that rise up to $300plus. I could feel the presurize almost every moment and even during my sleeping time. It's super dreadful to even think of it.

Fortunately, everything was already settle with the help of sky &Miss angie for giving me advises. Routing&yunru accompanying me. Last but not least, Sakinah for laughing throughout! Haha but overall she gives good advises too! (:

Cafe Cartel.

Routing &yun ru. Oh ya bumped onto Yangmin, Huilan &ximin haha.

You got me brain freeze with frozen heart !

2010-01-03T20:58:00.004+08:00

Finally! I went to town deserting my vacant house. Been quite a moment though. Since friends are always busy, or no one initiate for a meet out? But anyway, i'm alright with that :D

Oh ya, Trouble looked up for me last night, it accompanied me throughout the night, that i hardly had a wink. &Next was Trouble's close friend 'stupid dreams' tagged along. Factually, my emotions plays a part too. So actually, i'm Trouble's victim.

Last night, i'm not a heavy sleeper. I woke up every moment my short stupid dreams end. Troubling with trouble to doze off. The minimum hours of sleep doesn't really affects me. Yet it helps me with punctuality. Even though i'm still late for a few minutes. Woah! good effort.

As follow by plan, cityhall was the place we're meeting. We shopped around Raffles City, clothes shop are my all time favourite. Nothing caught my eyes, except Zara. So i made a purchase over there(:

After shopping, was time for dessert. Ate at HongKong cafe, real great dessert actually. &the ice kacang is so huge. Yes, we made a great achievement by finishing it.

Momentarily, i'm having a brain freeze &my heart was frozen.

The process of completing.

melting point

melted

watery

drank it all.

Completed.

Lastly, i'm happy that dinner wasn't alone today.

School reopening tmr!

It won't affect me, after today?

2010-01-02T23:02:00.003+08:00

What's more i hate, other than staying alone at home frequently.

I only had great accompanies like walls, fans, cellings &so on.
Perhaps i should just adapt to this new year!

okay shouldn't carry on anymore, too emooxzx.
:( not only because of that matter.

great pretender.

2009-12-31T21:06:00.005+08:00

Yo! I'm back here to revive my dead blog. Been neglecting it again, due to time constraint. Well, i went back to school for extra lesson yesterday.

After lesson headed to the library to study with YunRu &clement. &later Waisiang came to pass me my present! Haha, thanks Waisiang for the present!

In a midst of studying, 2 small mischievous came. Laughing &talking loudly, attracted our attention. One of the 7 years old girl blast her handphone music to outbeat clement's singing. Haha, &nearly using his waterbottle to hit his head. How naughty uh? So it was the final straw, when clement complained to the librarian.

So after the librarian came, they pipe down their volume. When the clock ticks 7, Yunru &waisiang went off.
&one of mischievous girl went home. &leaving her friend alone, so she quietly sat beside us.
&the funniest thing is she actually gave me her number, in simple term 'she wanna make friend with me' haha. Didn't know someone actually idolize me straight from the start when she saw me. Okay this is too thick skin, haha!
Today, headed to bedok library to study with clement again.

Xmas.

2009-12-31T20:41:00.001+08:00

Stay over at grandma's house on the 23rd, 24th. Celebrating christmas over there, like very year with Adeline! :D it's was quite funnnn, with long night talks(:

Out with Sakinah!

2009-12-22T15:54:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, 20th Decemeber !
Went to meet Karyan &Karchi the weird twin siblings haha. As well as cute, they gave me my birthday present. So sweet of them :D

After meeting them, met up with Sakinah(: headed to Marina Square like again on the 18th December. It was superb, I made a mistake upon going out the entrance to cityhall station. funnily, we turned a big round, leading back to Marina Square again.

Then somerset313 like again on the 19th december! Haha Forever21 is ever so lovely :D bought a shirt over there, cool!

&seriously, Sakinah is a teenage abuse! Haha, but overall there's always laughter like again on every outing.

Thanks Sakinah for the sweet present !

Blogged 3posts today &i shall be away for days! Stay over at grandma with adeline. Celebrating christmas over there! :D

19th December!

2009-12-22T15:29:00.005+08:00

On my birthday! Headed to Tanjong Pagang with Corene&Baozhen to walk around. But there's nothing, but all those closed shops. Boringly, we took a train to cityhall then Somerset. Roamed around Somerset313! Shopping mall there was AWESOME. 4storeys of Forever21! After the clock ticks 5, Huilan came over. &we took a train back to Tanjong Pangang. Just a waste of busfare actually! Haha, then had dinner at Sakae Sushi. Simply delicious &mouth watering.

However, looking at the sight of how Huilan consume her sushi could actually ruin one's appetite. &she even burp at Baozhen, &she actually inhaled her burp!
Overall it was tiring, but i did enjoy like again!
Last but not least, thanks Huilan, Baozhen, Corene and Yangmin for the lovely present :D

Early Celebration.

2009-12-22T14:20:00.009+08:00

On the 18th! Met out with Routing, Hannah &Yun Ru for an early celebration for Routing & mine birthday <3

It was nice decorating the 'new resolution white ball' with live band playing each of their own instrument, resulting some kind of Jazz music with the breezing atmosphere on the surrounding, simply relaxing and breeze taking! During dinner time, Hannah &Yun ru took the opportunity to slip away to the 'toilet' but actually they meant searching for an ideal cake for Routing&me. After a moment, they came back with 2small boxes of Starbucks Cake! :D
After all the process of Celebration, we toured around &homeswithome! (:

Thanks to Hannah&azura for the present!
&Routing, YunRu &Jeroen for another gift!

Re-loving.

2009-12-16T22:09:00.003+08:00

Wednesday back to school for extra IAC lesson. New teaching style, new teacher. Not a bad one (: overall quite good.

Headed to Bedok library, did IAC homework with Hannah, WaiSiang &clement. The place was ever so memorable, especially after the sunset. When the dark sky take over, my heart sank. (crap) :>

&Hannah went off, leaving me with Clement &Waisang.

After all, it's still fun. Consider a enjoyable day(:

Tokio Hotel (part of lyric) - Automatic.
Automatic, You're automatic, And your heart's like an engine. I die with every beat. You're automatic, And your voice is electric. Why do i still believe? It's automatic, Everywhere in your letter. A lie that makes me bleed. It's automatic. When you say things get better. But they never... Counting cars on a crossroad. They come and go like you. It's automatic, Watching faces i don't know. Erase the face of you It's automatic. Systematic . So traumatic .You're automatic Each step you make. Each breath you take. your heart. your soul. Remote-controlled. This life is so sick You're automatic to me.

Agonized.

2009-12-15T14:36:00.001+08:00

Monday! back to school for extra BFS lesson.

incomprehensive /{♥}yourheart.

All in one post.

2009-12-13T14:13:00.006+08:00

H O L I D A Y !
it means time to take a break &catching up with school work. (not entirely a fun holiday)

F R I D A Y
Last day of school (: like finally everyone's waiting for ! &as well as a farewell party to Mr Wong, thanks for the continuous 9months coaching in Accounting. Everyone start feeling the guilt conscience after you left. Because we once used to badmouth you, dislike you. Now, we realized you're actually a good lecturer &class adviser.

Bumped onto Yanting, in bus 69 bus lane(:

S A T U R D A Y
Out with Sakinah, first to century square to bring my phone for servicing :( Secondly, roamed around Orchard &somerset313 Laughter always accompany me, when there's Sakinah the crazy girl around hahaha. She's like so crazy in love with muscular hunks, &those babies and toddlers that she goes gaga over them. Oh yes, she mentally, physically, visually sick!

(Photo bout the previous trip to bugis,
new photo stil with sakinah)
But anyway, It's still a blast hanging out with herrrrrrrr! :D

S U N D A Y
Another day of rotting at home, but i could do something meaningful aside from reading i could also revise my BFS. However the laziness is taking over me again.

Momentarily, I dislike the word love, it keeps me sorting out my feelings, to cogitate. &yet a no return to my feeling.

'I dread meeting you, yet longed it. I had so much to say, yet it amounted to nothing'
Not effective anymore.

Almost over.

2009-12-04T22:51:00.004+08:00

Down with one last task &exam's officially over.
Roleplay roleplay, is approaching as near as next Tuesday.

Chilling in process, as Writing for business is done.

Last but not least, not forgetting/never forgotten that the days to HOLIDAY are numbered. For sure, DECEMBER HOLIDAY gonna be a real blast !
I'm like awaiting for so many upcoming fun events.

birthday.

2009-12-02T14:46:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN RU (:
18, 18. You're Eighteennnnnnn!

Something hilarious took place between the walk to Orchard Central, two American born Chinese guys was walking in front of us. &Obviously they speak fluent English that catch hannah's attention. &Funnily, Hannah started impersonating them. Surprisingly, they turned their heads back &question hannah bout her mimicking them. Three of us start bursting into laughter, it's real hilarious, could just laugh our head off. Random enough, they even talked bout a suitable dog name. Asking us names for dog, while i said Hannah, &Hannah said Sabrina. &that guy replied 'You're definitely not a dog lover'

back to missing you.

2009-11-28T16:23:00.001+08:00

Boring Saturday &Sunday.

Because i went out yesterday, i had to stay at home today. It's was a dreadful one, I'm bored stiff with facing the four walls, ceilings /++ Though i had to study for WFB, but i lost the mood to study. No motivation, because that's one of my weakest subject.

Out of the blues, i realised my role play was a load of crap. Not fluently flow, but forget it I'm already running out of time &it's already in process of memorizing.

Yesterday was a delightful day. Travelled to Orchard, i was late but it was not fully my fault. But i still need to apologise to Lilina, yunru, routing &jeroen for making them wait for about 40mins? Jaunted down to Shaw House to visit Azura in her workplace. Settle there &brought the cake out for Yun Ru at MOS burger.

ION &there goes Yun Ru&Lilina. After a short while, Jeroen went off too. The people are down with only Routing, Hannah &Me. We continued walking around, fittings room again. Next was cineleisure, dinner &went home! Enjoyable.

shouldn't dwell, rake, mull over.

2009-11-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

Just a short pause &it causes delay.

Alright, the previous week on the Saturday. Had a hang out with Sakinah, to bugis library. Not too bad at least we did study with some distraction coming from sakinah's mouth, the munching sound. Haha, not leaving the facts that i did munched too.

We roamed around bugis area. &it's simply enjoyable. Because there's always laughter that kills the silence.

&again, nothing sucks more than roleplay. If only we were exempted (...)

So much of being tired.

2009-11-20T17:09:00.005+08:00

It's always Writing for business &Service Excellence that ruin the likeness of school. I'm fine with Intermediaries accounting &banking and finance services. I don't see any point learning something so familiar with the previous subject in Nitec. It's like repeating almost the same chunk of sentences, passages. Damn tedious &redundant.

Speaking bout Writing for business is a dreadful one, a few months of almost everyday lesson &I'm even yet to know the format/content. Not being able to grasp it, adding on, sickening grade are encouraging me to loath that subject even more. This feeling 'worrying' is invading, taking a large portion of my emotions.

Times&times, I'm always battling with the weariness in my eyes. Holiday in advance please.

the takeover.

2009-11-17T21:18:00.008+08:00

Terror day.
It's not my day, entirely not!

Firstly Miss Angie said we're such a disappointment to her today, for skipping her lesson &not negotiating the facts with her that we dislike role play.

Secondly, staring at an average looking guy's face can be quite contagious that i missed a step while walking down the stairs &resulting an injury to my leg. Close to swell, &it's super embarrassing from the crowds. I feel like a cripple now. Thirdly, i went for a hair cut today. Simply speaking, my fringe is in a tragic state. As thick as mutiply layers causing me to use multipy pins to clip. Adding on, shorter than an inch now.

Fourthly, I took the wrong bus. It's not that my eyes is not doing it's job, whereas it's actually my mind thinking about sleeping. So upon hearing Li Rong randomly said that my bus had arrived, i rushed to chase the bus despite the pain on my leg. Aboard without looking at the bus number.
Seems like, i need to kick off my being 'so blur' habit.

Sometimes, things are not getting in my way. Get busy with exams, so long.

Sunday.

Headed to bugis, decorated hannah's birthday present. Woohoooo.

Lack of romance.

2009-11-14T15:38:00.004+08:00

All i am going forward, is the weekends. /Indulging.

Ever so gorgeous.

&thanks Faisal for the multi gifts (:
That's all, folks. This mood swing is taking over me.

I got an imaginary hamster!

2009-11-10T17:55:00.005+08:00

&Rou Ting played around with my imaginary, She's scary, damn scary. She loves smashing &eating my hamster, in real term she'll grab air &stuff it in her mouth. (imaginary)
Bouncy bouncy smack smack, I'm gonna give you an heart attack! Kept singing that song to Rou Ting. Alright, i knew that's a dirty song, but Rou ting enjoys it! Hahaha.

spendthrift

Mrs Neo, control all our screen. &i was pointed out/
Whoosh, i lost track of days again. School's as usual, very busy and tired. It's seems like exam is drawing near. So yea, the sequence goes like that at home : eat, watch tv &mug. or perhaps afternoon nap?

It's a bliss, to have funny classmates! That frequently kicks away my boredom, for an exchange of laughter. Well, today's lesson kinda short. So i headed to Popular with Rou Ting to buy my red highlighter &yet it's out of stock. Leaving so much hatred in popular, because it seems like i needed it desperately.

Back past few days, I've been searching high&low for my fanciful patterned scotch-tape &it's nowhere to be seem. Out of stupidity i acted too hastily &i just bought another pattern without due consideration. Alright not bad, after i bought suddenly the ideas past through my mind, reminding me there's a possibility that my lost scotch tape might be lying somewhere in my storeroom. &yes, it really happened to be in my storeroom. Sadness&anger start falling through my emoticons.

Forget it, by the way role play sucks! Even the process of composing, memorizing, acting out the script sucks !

Sincerely,

2009-11-07T17:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MUM, MUMMY, MOTHER, MOM
ily;

a new blogskin, still new.
Yet to update more .

/stupid pimple season.

2009-11-07T17:10:00.005+08:00

contradicting.

Boredom always bug me, loneliness always stream in.
Time always speed up so fast, that leave me behind lurking.
I was taken aback, over some matters. Regret, regretting, regretted
the biggest regret, that posses over me (. . .)

I need some time, to wash away all the matters that troubles me.
pour all the sorrow away, flush it to the drain, &down to the river.
sooner or later (. . .)

Frequent daydreaming, dreamed &dreamt .
smack me hard &say it's not gonna work
if only i could switch the feeling on/off.

untitle.

2009-11-03T19:03:00.004+08:00

I went out to cityhall on saturday, the purpose of heading there is actually a backpack hunting session for Routing &Yun ru. Obviously lilina &me was the bystanders then, following for pleasure sake as well as killing boredom.

(east point)

There's nothing awesome that attract them. So we jaunted down to marina square next. The walking of shops seems nothing interesting as mainly some shop aren't suitable for our age type, something that we won't fancy. But that isnt all that happened in there. Fun strikes up once we reached level 2 of marina square, it's was the arcade. The toy arcade that provide quite a number of station for toys. Glancing through all the tiny, small, huge soft toys, makes me have the strong surge to grab them all.Yun Ru spent like $50 buck playing so intensively. Everyone was overwhelmed with excitement, as well as being damn anxious for more toys to topple off. We banged &hit on the machine that the machine burp out a warning.

It was 6, &there goes lilina &yun ru. Heading different way while routing&me went to Orchard. Routing was forced by me to go, haha. Topshop, to try some tank tops &new look, kinda indecisive but ended we bought it at topshop. Then somerset for Orchard central, bumped into Mr Ng &his wife. Nothing much though, but it look very sophiscated. With live band, singing those jazz music that makes one feel very calming, having a peace of mind.

Eyes close and reminiscing,

2009-10-28T19:51:00.005+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Clement (: enjoy.

School was long &draggy today, had stress management talk &leave out Intermediate Accounting lesson. &during Banking Finance&services, many wasn't listening. But busy using their computer, logging in to facebook! I was half attentive, half focusing on my facebook comments. It's like a continuous chit chat in facebook, when actually we're in the same room okay beside each other only.

&I enjoyed S&W the most, not because i'm sporty but i'm very into working out in gym! Ooohh, so nice &it tighten my muscle, so yea i like the feeling, the tension.

I met up with an downright embarrassing incident in interchange, i overshot my bus lane. &not acknowledging the facts that lilina corrected me, bout my overshot distance. I even told her, "no la, is the other one" &walked into the bus lane. Relieve! As the arrival of the bus, makes the queue moved upon me reaching that bus lane. &i saw it's actually bus 72! Oh my, i quickly make my way out, the other entrance. Couldn't be less blur!

/It's seems that i cant shake off those memories, i wonder if you feel the same way too.

2009-10-26T19:03:00.004+08:00

Queen town with Sakinah
Saturday, 17october

Trip out with sakinah(: First we visited Parkway parade, &next was Orchard. We roamed the street of shopping malls, simply great &enjoyable with her around. It's an extra bonus (: Shopping for clothes, &i did bought one at new looks, &another at cotton on. Contented. Feel so nice to walk the crowded street of orchard, when the dark sky takes over the daylight. Very comfortable &eye-catching with many different type of people passing by. Not forgetting the two handsome caucasian guys, was most likely captivated by their looks.

Either one of the days, last week. I watched Imagine that. Overall, pretty funny &nice, quite worth it. Watched with Yun Ru& Routing

After such a long pause, the words that i 'long thought to blog about' it's fading, diminishing, images of happening is losing out, causing a pretty blur vision in my mind. Reasonably, people tend to forget all those 'not so important' things, isn't it?

Recently, i was hit by a pang of mood swings. I was so much in a despair state. Desperate to rewind back time. It's always the frequent flashing of you through my mind, pictures, memories, images that once used to be so fond. Yet sometimes i wish, i could burn all those thoughts away. Excuses aren't there to fend myself, to stop all these. Perhaps, this is the first time i came across such encounter. All these are soon to come to an end, patience (:

Sometimes, yes.

2009-10-25T19:31:00.001+08:00

One fine Sunday, met up with RouTing &Clement. We did nothing much, but only a pathetic question.

But overall, it's still quite okay. Didn't shop much except for long hours spent in East point(:
photos shall upload, next time.