Slowly I've learn to be independent. I had this mindset that going out alone kills. After experiencing it, i felt a sense of satisfaction that I'm capable in doing things alone. Walking pass strangers feeling the crowds, sensing eyes staring at me being so self conscious about my appearance &how others lay their first impression of me however time changes everything. The perception of staring, awkward in a crowd &as well as being so self conscious gradually changed.

Recently some of my friends described me as crazy for swimming alone in the pool on a Sunday afternoon for two inexorable hours. This is a great achievement for me, I'm proud of myself. hoho(: And the scorcher Sunday afternoon left some tan-ness on my skin. Not that tan exactly for someone fair in complexion like me. But not that fair anymore :( after making comparison of my skin tone i did spotted the contrast. Sadly, i need to swim more due to some reason:(

Oh yes I'm capable of shopping alone too, after twice of yesterday incident. Sometimes even waiting for my friends momentarily.

Generally having sweaty palms isn't a great burden to me. But now i see the drawback, nope! it's never a good thing before. I'm just lagging behind to discover, i hate it so much. Such burden on me, i wish this is curable aside of operations to remove the swear glands. My palms sweat easier than the usual but not to the extend that it drips. This is awkward when it comes to skin contact &much more. How disgusted other feels about it, sweat! How mortifying! You'll see the implication of it &you'll feel how miserable i feel. I know no one's perfect, but i abhor this so much. Stupidly the more conscious i became the more it sweat, like sweating profusely. I hoping for it to sweat less, yet it turns out opposite.