Just the way you are.

Withstand it through the night .

Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 1:33 PM

There goes, there goes all my words, my words that was reforming/accumulating in my mind for the past few minutes. Unfortunately, i failed to recall it. I drafted it through my mind. I pictured the words, the words that belongs here. Yet, it was close to blank now.

Could i indicate this as 'short term memory' ? Perhaps, jotting down could help improve my capability of memorising. Oh well, enough of whining. On one hand, i enjoy the process of whining. On the other hand it's draining to others.

Today it's my favourite, because it's Saturday. Could time just stalled, during Saturday? Stalled &forward time is 'oh-so-mighty awesome' (: Majority benefits stand on Saturday, it's the day to backtrack the weekdays lessons, to catch up or maybe to release the stress resurfacing through the weekdays.

For this instance, it hit me down with realization that I'm starting to lose out in studies term. Or should i said, it isn't simple anymore? That's my fullest that couldn't stretch beyond, no over my benchmark? This is where i stand, no further?

I guess, May is the busiest period of all. Too many events, adding on, exams fall on that period too. Speaking bout rejection. How can one say 'No' in a sheer way? A word that is easy to pronounce, easy to spell, easy to write. However how are you gonna reply to a 'No' ? Can you reply like you're actually acceding? Once rejected to others and you're already pinpointed, matter-of-facts? Understanding is another matter, but how many people understand? A quarter of the population? I'm not understandable too.

Yesterday, I don't get to feel your presence &i managed to survive through the numb feeling of mine. Good or bad ? I need to do a sorting to my feeling, or else i'm gonna neglect my studies. To strike out a healthy balance isn't simple,

Lastly, i'm lost for words. Such an abrupt ending.

Labels: i'm losing my trust., So much of you